Skillz

I have "mad skillz". I type at least 70wpm. I have extensive knowledge in most computer programs. I was trained in Microsoft Word, Excel, Access, and PowerPoint. Since the invention of the computer, (just kidding), since 7th grade, I've been interested in computers and technology. So, why don't I have a job in computers you ask? Beats the heck out of me!

I am intelligent, have a winning personality, and a very quick learner, but I am indecisive and sort of lazy. Alright, a lot lazy. I admit it. NOT a trait I'm proud of and one that I struggle to overcome, but if it comes to doing labor, I'd rather sit down and pull out a blog post like this one.

I love going to school though. I love getting good grades; I guess that means I love gratification. I need a job that gives me praise. I need one where my accomplishments are acknowledged. I'm greedy like that, and I guess pretty needy. I want someone to pat me on the back and say good job, or hand me back a graded paper with A+ on it. I can't find that type of feedback in the workforce. I also get really bored. I need to do things that are NOT monotonous. Change it up a bit. Don't give me a job where I'm doing repetitive stuff because then I feel like a robot. That's why I love daycare, photography, and computers. NOTHING is ever the same. It's challenging. I thrive on stress. I get off on challenges. Find me a job that's challenging and I will excel.

Hmmm...now only to find that job.

(PS Cashiering at Circle K is monotonous).

I'm a big girl now...

So, I voluntarily removed myself from employment due to the hostile work environment I had been subjected to for the past 3 weeks. *Sigh* While I'm not totally convinced it was the smartest move, I do know that it was the right decision. I was draining myself emotionally, mentally, and physically for a company that sends mixed signals and has unrealistic expectations of its crew. Without divulging details, let me just assure you it wasn't a pretty sight, and with my "injury" being questioned on top of everything else, I felt it was in my best interest to leave without incidence.

So, for the rest of the week I will be in California trying to clear my head and come home with a fresh outlook and look for work...

Wish me luck.

Family

They say blood is thicker than water. Then, why does my water family treat me better than my blood one? Why do they stand behind me and appreciate the efforts I make?

Some members of my family have exiled me for reasons they feel are justifiable. But, I think they've overreacted and stooped to a new kind of low. What they've done is inexcusable and unforgettable. I'd say unforgivable, but I'm a very forgiving person.

It hurts my heart that we don't speak to each other. I miss her like crazy and I miss her baby, too. She'll probably never know that, but...I had to write it.